Tuesday, June 30, 2009
welcome, baby jayden!
jayden nicole was born (three weeks early!) at 1:12 pm today. she is 19-and-a-half inches long and she weighs 7 pounds, 7 ounces.
she has a full head of hair and she smells like heaven!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
may: spain!
spain: day one (arrival in barcelona)
four-and-a-half hours later, we got cleaned up and went up to the rooftop of the hotel for the most magnificent view of the city you could possibly imagine -- la sagrada familia, against a mountain backdrop and surrounded by its perpetual cranes, was there to greet us when we got off of the elevator; we turned to the right to see the beautiful mediterranean sea, and one more turn to the right took us to a view of montjuic; in between was gaudi's casa battlo... i'm fairly certain i got a little teary-eyed (and i'm fairly certain also that this was not the only time i got a little teary-eyed) -- i was seeing these amazing things that i had read about, studied, wanted to see, in college but also in high school -- it was too much. i am so blessed.
we were feeling adventurous, so we decided to try out a restaurant that i'd read about in my guidebook, taverna basca irati. it was hard to find, and we had to some scary turns down some dark and narrow streets, but eventually we found it. the place was long, narrow, and crow. ded. as soon as we walked in the door we got yelled at in catalan (of which i understand nothing), but we figured out that they were warning us to keep our belongings close to us in the crowded place. waiters were continually bringing out serving platters of pinchos (bite-sized servings of different foods on top of bread held together by toothpicks) and setting them down on the long bar. a not-so-nice barmaid gave us a plate and explained to us that we would eat what we wanted and then pay at the end of the night based on how many toothpicks were left on our plate. (honor system? what??) so we pushed our way through the crowd of locals to get a sampling of pinchos -- we didn't always know what it was that we were eating, but more often than not it was pretty delicious. it was loud, hot, and more or less insane in there, but it was the most fun!
spain: day two (la rambla to the port)
once we got up and running, we walked down towards placa catalunya for a breakfast (brunch?) of coffee and pastries. we stepped into el corte ingles (a popular department store chain with everything you could possibly imagine) and were immediately overwhelmed and overstimulated. the number of people and the number of things to look at was staggering. we made a mental note for later of where the grocery store was, and then we made a hasty retreat.
from the corte ingles we wandered down to la rambla, which is a completely different scene during the day than it is at night. one entire section of the rambla is lined with vendors selling the most beautiful and colorful flowers, of every imaginable variety, big and small. the colors and smells were so powerful and just absolutely enchanting. the next section of the rambla was filled with vendors selling all sorts of apartment-sized pets: birds, ferrets, bunnies, turtles, ducks, hamsters, etc. lots of them were babies, and they were so adorable and so much fun to watch.
a little farther down, we came to the mercat de sant josep de la boqueria, an open-air market with endless aisles of booths where you could buy just about any type of food you could ever even think of - fresh fruits and veggies, fresh fish and meats, nuts and candies and chocolates - and they were all arranged so artfully and thoughtfully. i could see why this place was packed with people - it was such a treat to just admire the displays, and to be surrounded by all of the different colors and smells. we paid a euro for a cup of fresh blended fruit juice (strawberry and some other fruit we'd never heard of) and it was delicious, of course.
we continued down the rambla, past our friend christopher columbus, to the port. we crossed the rambla del mar (a fancy pedestrian bridge that looks like waves) to get to the maremagnum mall. lunch was fish and chips (and cava and cerveza) out on the boardwalk, where we could sit in the sun and watch the boats out in the harbor for a little while. after we did a little shopping in the mall, we went to the aquarium, because we can never resist an aquarium. i have to say that the aquarium was a little...disappointing. there was not even one otter there! we did see a fish that we'd never seen or heard of before, but aside from that, i wasn't impressed (plus, the photo booth ate our euros!).
spain: day three (sunday in the barri gotic)
from the placa, we walked down avinguda portal d'angel, past lots of fancy shops and not-so-fancy stands selling little trinkets. we heard some music coming from one of the tiny side streets and decided to explore further, following the sounds down the narrow cobbled lane until we discovered some sort of procession... all sorts of people, young and old, were emerging from a gate in the stone wall, some playing music, some carrying a big shrine-type thing (it reminded me of a mardi-gras float with jesus on top), others were carrying banners or nothing at all. tiny older women wore black mantillas, and the musicians all wore green. they were all very serious-faced, and as they passed we followed some other onlookers through the gate into a lovely little hidden courtyard. there was a little flower shop on our left, and directly in front of us was a beautiful 15th century church. the cloister was charming and quiet, and we just couldn't believe our luck, that we had found this incredible little church, tucked away where we would never have expected to find such a thing.
we could still hear the music as we left the courtyard, although we could no longer see the procession. continuing down our original path, we came to a fork in the road. before we made our decision, we took a moment to admire a 17th-century fountain that once served as the last watering stop for horses on the way out of barcino (ancient barcelona). past the fountain, we came to a square where there were two towers, left over from the walls that surrounded the city in roman times.
eventually we came to the cathedral of barcelona, a 14th-century gothic cathedral dedicated to one of the patron saints of barcelona, santa eulalia. we toured the cloister, where thirteen geese are kept at all times, in honor of eulalia. i don't have good history with geese (they're mean!), but these ones were behind a gate, so i felt pretty safe. we left the cloister and made our way to the front of the cathedral, which sadly was under construction and hidden behind a giant picture of what it was supposed to look like. a large crowd had gathered out in the square in front of the church, and there was a group of musicians seated on the cathedral steps. it was time for the sardana dances! every sunday at noon, locals of all ages come together to celebrate catalan pride with this traditional circle dance - dancers put their belongings in the center of the circle and join hands, moving to the music made by the cobla band on the steps. we watched in awe as up to seven circles formed during each song. everyone seemed to know the dance, young and old, and anyone could join any circle at any time.
we ate a small lunch at a lovely little cafe (margherita focaccia) and wandered around the narrow cobbled streets of the gothic quarter for a bit. everywhere we turned, there were hidden plazas and sunday concerts - there was always soft music coming from somewhere. we found and toured the picasso museum, which housed an amazing collection of picasso's works from every stage in his artistic journey. it was fascinating to see it all laid out like that. and there was an entire room dedicated to his fifty-ish interpretations of velazques' famous las meninas. after the picasso museum, we ate a tortilla espanola (more like an omelet than a tortilla) at the museum's textil cafe, tucked away in a sweet little courtyard nearby.
we did a little more wandering and found ourselves in barcelona's ribera (el born) neighborhood. behind the church was a long narrow square that we learned was once used for jousting. there was also a monument with an eternal flame, dedicated to catalonia's own september 11th tragedy, a massacre of catalan patriots that happened almost three hundred years ago.
it was getting to be siesta time, so we looked for the metro (actually, got lost looking for the metro) and took it back to our hotel. after our nap, we took our cava and cerveza and hopped on the metro again, bound for the magic fountains! as it happened, our arrival at the national palace coincided with the end of a futbol game... celebrating fans were out in droves, cheering and making mischief. kids were playing in the mountain of foamy bubbles they had created in one of the small fountains. the magic fountain itself was pretty impressive - every twenty minutes or so there was a fantastic light and water show set to music. we sipped our bebidas and watched two or three different shows, and a few of the people too. this woman in particular was absolutely...mesmerized.
once we were back in the eixample, we ate a delicious tapas dinner at a table outside - seafood croquettes, patatas bravas, a bikini sandwich, and paella. they kicked us out at midnight because they were closing the outside seating area, so, satisfied with our meal and our day, we went home for some sleep!
spain: day four (gaudi and the beach)
after lunch, we began the hike to parc guell. we ended up getting there the back way, which required a scary climb through an area where the walls were covered with anti-tourist graffiti... we were slightly terrified, but we made it safely to our destination. and what a destination it was! it was ten times the fantasy wonderland that la pedrera was - perhaps because it was an entire park, and gaudi's creative expressions had not been limited to the space of just one building. parc guell had been designed as a sort of high end housing development, which was an idea a hundred years or so ahead of its time. apparently, people weren't ready for that particular idea, so it became a public park for the people of barcelona to enjoy. the front gates of the park are spectacular - two gingerbread houses mark the entryway, and walking through them brings you to the most magnificent stairway and the famous multicolored mosaic dragon fountain. as you go up the stairs you come to a hall of columns with a mosaic ceiling. the columns serve to support the main terrace above, an open space surrounded by a long winding bench that resembles a serpent. the bench is ergonomically designed to fit the natural curves of your back, and like nearly everything else in the park, its entire surface is covered in beautiful mosaic tile. the wall behind the terrace has lots of little "bird's nest" alcoves - we picked one to hide out in while we ate some ice cream and listened to a band play some happy music. the entire place was just... magical.
when we were exhausted from the park, we made our way to the closest metro station and went back to our hotel room. for whatever reason, we just couldn't fall asleep for siesta-time, so we finally gave up and got ready for the evening. we took the metro again, this time out towards the water, and walked the rest of the way to the beach. we drank our grocery store cava and cerveza as the sun was setting. we took our shoes off, drew a heart in the sand, and put our feet into the mediterranean sea. then we ate tapas at an open-air restaurant on the beach - classic catalonian paella and pa amb tomaquet. it was dark as we walked back to the metro station, past the gypsies building their intricate sand castle creations. having had no siesta, we passed out almost immediately when we got back to the hotel room. i think it was the first before-midnight bedtime we'd had for the whole trip (if you know me, you know i usually go to bed before 10pm at home)!
spain: day five (last day in barcelona)
gaudi's famous church was breathtaking, to say the very least. nothing could have prepared me for it - not my high school spanish class, not my college art appreciation class or art history class - seeing it in person, right before my very eyes, was absolutely indescribable. we entered at the passion facade, a stunning portrayal of the last days of christ's life made to look stark and white and pointy, like bones and pain and sadness. we got the audio guide and learned about the symbolism and meaning that had been carefully built in to every single part of gaudi's church. the nave, a nonstop construction zone, was created to look like a forest. the supporting columns twist subtly and then branch out as they make their way up to the cieling, which looks like the forest canopy, and spaces between the leaves let the perfect amount of natural light in.
we took the elevator up to the top of the passion facade, which was an accomplishment for me, as i have an irrational and sometimes paralyzing fear of elevators, but how many times are you at the sagrada familia, right? so i took my chances, and it was more than worth it. incredible views of the city and of the rooftop details of the church were my rewards when we got to the top... and so as was a crazy winding staircase adventure to get back down. the first crazy winding staircase involved a narrow passageway and walls on either side of me, but the second one had only an outside wall and nothing to hold on to in the center; in fact you could see all the way down to the ground floor if you looked through the center (which alan told me not to do but i did anyway and immediately regretted afterward). i didn't have the guts to take a picture of that situation until i had my feet planted firmly on the bottom.
we continued our tour of the church, which took us around the nave and out to the nativity facade - if you've ever seen a picture of the sagrada familia, this is probably what you saw. it was the first and only part of the church that was finished before gaudi's death, in hopes of inspiring funding for its completion. the facade was designed to appear swollen and alive with the joy and love of christ's birth - again it was rife with religious symbolism and images from nature, and just absolutely awe-inspiring beyond words.
after that little adventure, we ate lunch in the cobble stoned inner courtyard of the castle, and then headed up to the roof to admire the view of the port below. it was a beautiful sunny day, a little windy up at the top of the mountain, but it was clear and perfect for looking out at theboats on the blue mediterranean. we were looking down at a garden on one side of the castle when we noticed a man with a few plastic shopping bags walking towards a big bush next to the garden wall. he banged something against the wall and then probably a dozen cats appeared from inside a few different bushes and ran over to him! he reached into his plastic bags and retrieved dry and wet cat food, which he then set out for the cats. i, of course, was really jealous (and missing my own cats) and decided that i wanted to go down and be loved by the kitties. when we got down there, we watched as another lady came bearing cat food and did the same thing. we got quite a show, although we learned that these were not the kind of cats that like to be petted so much.
on our way back down the mountain, we went through more garden areas and past a pretty fountain. since we didn't really know where we were going anyway, we took our chances and went exploring. we ended up finding a zip-line type swing in the garden and spent a few minutes swinging between platforms and acting like kids (who can resist a zip-line swing??).
spain: day five-and-a-half (drip...drip...drip...)
at first we tried to ignore it. maybe we could sleep through it. i took a pill to help me sleep.
but the drips got louder. and they came faster.
and finally, at midnight-thirty, we called the front desk.
maybe there was another room that we could just sleep in for a few hours?
nope. fully booked.
so the maintenance man came up to take a look.
there was something wrong with the air conditioner.
he fixed it, kind of.
we got three hours of sleep, kind of.
spain: day six (off to madrid)
on the way back, we stopped at a supermarket for a few little snacks. there was a room ready for us when we got back to our strange little hotel. it was a really cute room, and a good size... but it had... an interesting smell. it wasn't awful, but it wasn't pleasant, either. luckily we had open-able windows and a nice view of the city. we took a few hours to just relax, check our email, watch a little bit of tv, and take a siesta.
after siesta, we showered and headed over towards the prado. still a little groggy, we stopped at a starbucks (i know! i am disappointed in us too!) for some caffeine and a sandwich. we got to the museum at 6:00 (it's free from 6-8pm), and hit the highlights - goya, velazquez, rubens, titian... of course, las meninas stole the show, and it was everything i'd imagined it would be (even though i'd never really imagined i'd ever see it!).
our hotel was right across the street from plaza mayor, so instead of going straight to our room, we stopped at the charming 17th-century square. it was getting dark outside, that perfect time of day when the sky is still just barely lit up by the last little bit of the day's sun. a lively combination of musicians and entertainers and tourists and locals gave the cobblestoned plaza a certain care-free energy. the statue in the center of the square and the buildings around it were lit beautifully... we got some gelato for dessert and soaked up the romantic atmosphere for a little while before heading up to our hotel room for some much-needed sleep.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
april: birthday fun
my birthday fell on a saturday this year. alan threw me a party on the friday before my bday, because we had plans on the 11th. two of my oldest and very best friends were in from out of town - carolyn was in town from boulder, and amanda came up from austin. they came over early and we had some time to catch up. other friends arrived early and we all got to hang out and talk before walking over to the restaurant for dinner and more drinks. i was so happy to have all my favorite people there with me! after dinner, everyone came back over to our apartment and we continued the celebration into the wee hours of the night. lots of laughing and talking and craziness (and thankfully no cops this time). there was hello kitty birthday cake even! carolyn and amanda stayed the night, so after the rest of the guests trickled out, we all stayed up talking even later. i think we went to bed around 3 a.m...
i hadn't had a birthday party in probably three years, so i know i'm out of practice, but i honestly can't think of a more perfect one than that.
the next day, on my actual birthday, we headed over to our family friends' (might as well be family) house for an almost-easter cookout with them and my parents. my mom and stepdad were leaving early the next morning for their new home in upstate new york... and everyone was just fine until it was time to go. then the tears started coming. and i cried the ugly cry. i just wasn't prepared for it, i guess. i'd always thought that i'd be the one to move away from them, not the other way around.
for the most part, i'm doing okay about the whole thing. i miss my parents, of course, but i know that they're happy and that's what really matters. i have to admit that i cried once in a barnes & noble because of their stupid mother's day display, but other than little moments like that, i'm good. i'm lucky enough to have all kinds of practically-family family in my life, not to mention wonderful in-laws. i wouldn't mind a hug from my mommy every once in a while though.
Monday, June 15, 2009
april: wedding fun
i had the honor of co-hosting a bridal shower and a bachelorette party with good girlfriends for a good girlfriend.
the bridal shower was actually at the end of march, and it was just lovely; i'd never seen the bride-to-be so happy! we had a "bling bride" theme, with ring pops, tiaras, candy necklaces, etc. it was fun to meet and spend a little time with her family and friends (her mom was just adorable). we played silly games, we drank mimosas, and watched the bride blush as she opened her sexier gifts. then we ate that gorgeous cake (yum!). the whole thing made me remember that happy happy time in my life... seems like only yesterday - i can't believe it was two years ago!!!
the next weekend, we threw her bachelorette party. it was a slumber party - ten girls in our pjs (we got all-white bridal pjs for the bride-to-be), playing games, drinking champagne punch, giggling and talking about girl things... basically being super girly. and the "passion party" portion of the evening was incredibly entertaining. mostly, though, i just enjoyed the quality time with some of my favorite ladies.
the wedding was a few weeks later, and it was beautiful. the bride was beautiful. it was a small wedding and the reception was intimate - good food, good friends, and good wine. the father of the bride cried during his toast. what more could you ask for?
congratulations, jen and zack!
Sunday, June 14, 2009
ta-da
Sunday, March 22, 2009
smarch
Sunday, March 1, 2009
celebrations
Sunday, February 22, 2009
alan's birthday
Friday, February 6, 2009
25 random things {i love} about alan
2. when we go out to eat, he always makes me a “perfect bite” of whatever he is eating.
3. he makes up ridiculous songs and sings them quite loudly all day long. these songs normally involve one or both of the cats or serve as some sort of strange musical narrative for whatever we happen to be doing at the moment.
4. he gets lost going to places we’ve never been before. and also going to places we’ve been a hundred times. he puts way to much faith into mapquest and google maps, but he tends to misinterpret or over analyze the directions they give us.
5. he gets incredibly hyper the second he gets home from work. as of yet i have never been able to explain this phenomenon, but it usually leads to bone-crushing hugs, loud noises, crazy cats, and above ridiculous songs.
6 he takes at least two showers a day. what sort of boy does this?
7 he. loves. statues. you should have seen him in paris. why was it that i didn’t even learn this about him until after we were already married? i’d thought i’d known everything about him.
8 he always puts others first. i mean always. sometimes i have to yell at him to make him be a little selfish. i, however, am very good at being selfish.
9 one time there was a plastic spider near him. he screamed like a five-year-old girl and hid under a desk.after that we started a game of hide-the-spider that continues (off and on) to this day.
10 you should see the way he loves his grandpa. it may be the sweetest thing in the world. he always says that grandpa taught him how to be a good man – a good son, a good brother, a good husband. and i must say that grandpa did a damn good job. (thanks!)
11. for some reason, he prefers fruity candy (starburst, skittles, gummy bears) to good candy (also known as chocolate). i love him anyway.
12. he’s my biggest fan (besides maybe my mom). he believes in me more than i do. he brags about me to anyone who’ll listen, but he never brags about himself. i don’t know if this is because he doesn’t know how amazing he is, or if he just doesn’t want to toot his own horn… but i hope that he knows how amazing he is.
13. one time in fredricksburg he drove a four-wheeler straight into a giant pit of the deepest, thickest mud you’ve ever seen. we were surrounded by giant man-eating spiders and we ruined our tennis shoes and we spent the entire afternoon trying to get that thing out of the mud. until then i don’t think i had ever once questioned his judgment.
14. he makes the best mashed potatoes in the world.
15. he doesn’t know anything about music. the only bands he can recognize every time are e.l.o. and boston. he once asked me if janis joplin's piece of my heart was a remake of a faith hill song.
16. he's never been able to say "lackadaisical" right. it bugs me a lot because i'm kinda weird about spelling and pronunciation but i think it's cute.
17. he likes roller coasters even less than i do.
18. he knows every single obscure random fact and rule about football in the entire history of football. he can tell you who won super bowl 22 and what the score was and what the most important play of the game was and which player made that play. and he will tell you all of these things as if he was there.
19. he loves the fact that i like to chase frogs and pick them up. one time i found a snake skin that had been molted and i thought it was fascinating. he looked at me like he wanted to marry me all over again.
20. he reads my blog.
21. when he's nervous or thinking really hard, he rubs his fingernails across his mouth. he doesn't even realize he's doing it until i tell him.
22. when we were in paris at luxembourg garden there was some art piece that he called a "big hairy tv." we sat in front of it and he put one ear bud in each of our ears and played les poissons (from the little mermaid) on the ipod and we drank a bottle of wine and sang along.
23. every time we travel he takes a picture of our tired feet next to each other.
24. he refuses to eat the last bite of a banana.
25. he loves me in spite of my flaws (and i've got a lot of them).
Sunday, February 1, 2009
25 random things
1. by the time i was in third grade i had lived in four states. i don't understand it when i hear about people who have lived in the same house since they were born. the longest i ever lived in one house was like 6 years. i've been in texas for something like seventeen years and i like it but i certainly don't want to live here for the rest of forever.
2. i had a... feeling about alan the first time i met him. which wasn't actually the first time i met him, but that's a long story. anyway i knew he was something special way before we even went on our first date. i knew i loved him after probably two or three weeks, and i knew without even the tiniest shadow of a doubt that i was going to marry him by the time we had been together for four months. (don't worry, we didn't actually get married until we had been together for 4 years.)
3. i took nine years of spanish classes. i could have minored in spanish if i had just taken one or two more classes but i really wanted to learn french so i took a semester of that instead. i love... languages.
4. four days after i graduated from high school, my ex boyfriend (first love) passed away. i cried for weeks. the painful, body-shaking, deepest heart-aching, horrible kind of crying that leaves you weak and wasted for a long time.
that was the day i grew up.
5. as a kid some of my favorite books were jumanji, the phantom tollbooth, and cloudy with a chance of meatballs. i loved the stories and the intricately detailed illustrations. i wanted to grow up and write and illustrate children's books.
6. i want to travel. alan and i have made a pact to try and go to one new country a year. in 2007 we went to france. in 2008 we went to mexico and canada, and the plan for 2009 is spain.
7. when we first got gubs, scoop hated him. he made the scariest noises i had ever heard and hid most of the time. he looked at me like i had served him up with the worst betrayal in the history of cats. nothing felt right in my world for a month. i was pretty sure i had broken our family.
8. i think i could be a really good wedding planner. i'm really organized and detail-oriented and i love all things wedding-related. my only real issue would be the hours. and the brides.
9. i love writing lists.
10. i was 22 when i realized that my mom was a real person and not some super hero. to this day it amazes me the things she has done, the sacrifices she has made, all... for me. it boggles the mind.
11. i believe that disney world really is the happiest place on earth. and i believe that colorado is the promised land.
12. i've done some crazy stupid things in my life. i'm not necessarily proud of everything i've done, but i'm not ashamed of any of it. i can definitely say that i've learned from my experiences and my mistakes. they're all part of who i am.
13. i hear horror stories about my friends' in-laws and i thank my lucky stars for mine. they're just so... nice. i love them all so much. i really hit the jackpot with this boy.
14. i'm afraid of flying, and public speaking, and elevators. i'm a nervous passenger. i have control issues.
15. i am shy, but only when i first meet new people, or when i'm in a brand new situation. once i figure things out and get a little more comfortable, i will open up so much that you'll wish i hadn't.
16. i'm a hippie at heart. i like pretty things and the color pink and i work in the most shallow and wasteful industry there is, but i'm a hippie. i don't eat meat, not because i don't like it, but because it's better for animals and the environment. i do all the inconvenient-but-good-for-the-environment things i can: i unplug electronics and appliances when they're not being used, i buy recycled toilet paper, i use eco-friendly cleaning products, i eat organic everything, i conserve water, and i use nylon shopping bags.
17. i'm a perfectionist. my mom always tells this story about when i was little and she was worried because i was at the age when other kids were learning to walk and i just wasn't. apparently i never even tried to. and then one day i got up and walked across the room like it was nothing. even now i don't like to do anything unless i can do it right the first time.
18. in sixth grade, carolyn and i went to an x-files convention in plano. we painted our nails green and wore our x-files t-shirts and hoped that, even though they weren't supposed to be there, gillian anderson and david duchovny would show up.
19. i met some of the best friends i've ever had in girl scouts in third grade. one summer, though, i went to girl scout camp and i hated it. i didn't know anyone there and it was my first time to spend more than one night away from home and i got the worst case of homesickness ever and one night there was a wasp in my bed and it stung every single one of my fingers before i woke up and realized what was going on. plus i lived in constant fear of ticks and lime disease for an entire week.
20. i think too much. about everything.
21. every job i've ever had i got because of a friend of mine. my first job was at contempo casuals, thanks to my friend gretchen. after that, amanda (from third grade girl scouts) got me a job as a hostess at on the border. then gretchen convinced me to work at chili's instead for a dollar more per hour. when i went to college i transferred to the chili's in denton. after a year or so there, my friend sarah suggested that i wait tables with her at hooters. i worked there for three years until i couldn't stand it anymore, at which point my friend chelsea helped me get a job in retail. i got my first job out of college because one of my favorite professors recommended me to a friend of hers who was my first boss. and i got the job i'm in now thanks to my friend jenny. i guess it really is all about who you know.
22. i think i'm a good person in general. but i want to do good things with my life. i want to go on mission trips again, and i want to do volunteer work. i've been so blessed and all i want to do is spread the love.
23. i love buying gifts for people - i love looking for the perfect gift for someone and then finally finding it and giving it to them. i love surprising people (but i don't always like to be surprised). i love birthday parties and cupcakes and slumber parties, too.
24. i'm not very good at accepting complements.
25. i've found my soul mate. it was an accident. i wasn't looking for him at all and i just... found him. and now all i want for everyone i know is for them to have what i have.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
tapas
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
inauguration day
each day we go about our business, walking past each other, catching each others' eyes or not, about to speak or speaking. all about us is noise. all about us is noise and bramble, thorn and din, each one of our ancestors on our tongues. someone is stitching up a hem, darning a hole in a uniform, patching a tire, repairing the things in need of repair.
someone is trying to make music somewhere with a pair of wooden spoons on an oil drum with cello, boom box, harmonica, voice.
a woman and her son wait for the bus.
a farmer considers the changing sky; a teacher says, "take out your pencils. begin."
we encounter each other in words, words spiny or smooth, whispered or declaimed; words to consider, reconsider.
we cross dirt roads and highways that mark the will of someone and then others who said, "i need to see what's on the other side; i know there's something better down the road."
we need to find a place where we are safe; we walk into that which we cannot yet see.
say it plain, that many have died for this day. sing the names of the dead who brought us here, who laid the train tracks, raised the bridges, picked the cotton and the lettuce, built brick by brick the glittering edifices they would then keep clean and work inside of.
praise song for struggle; praise song for the day. praise song for every hand-lettered sign; the figuring it out at kitchen tables.
some live by "love thy neighbor as thy self."
others by first do no harm, or take no more than you need.
what if the mightiest word is love, love beyond marital, filial, national. love that casts a widening pool of light. love with no need to preempt grievance.
in today's sharp sparkle, this winter air, anything can be made, any sentence begun.
on the brink, on the brim, on the cusp -- praise song for walking forward in that light.